My personal philosophy ... Everyone I know who got there dream job doing what they loved when they were young learned to hate what they do now (ask Jeff he can rant about his job amusingly for at least an hour). I'm sorry to agree with your dad, but the longer I live the more I'm convinced of the wisdom that life is best when earn enough money doing what you can stand, so you can send your spare time doing what you love/enjoy.
Now about you ... I'm not completely clear on what car/tree/highway analogy meant but it occurred to me you might not be the same person who wrote those journal entries, after all you've gotten older and as we, children of Empire, bumble into middle-age I think we get regretful of the path we are on as the roads/choices before us narrow or disappear. I certainly feel/felt that way. It's perfectly natural, cut yourself some slack. WALLOW away, try some over indulging in vices, have a middle life crisis, pitch a fit or whatever, then listen to your parents voice, get over yourself, tell the negative inner voice to fuck off. Find what will make you content for the rest of your life or some sort of middle ground.
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Now about you ...
I'm not completely clear on what car/tree/highway analogy meant but it occurred to me you might not be the same person who wrote those journal entries, after all you've gotten older and as we, children of Empire, bumble into middle-age I think we get regretful of the path we are on as the roads/choices before us narrow or disappear. I certainly feel/felt that way. It's perfectly natural, cut yourself some slack. WALLOW away, try some over indulging in vices, have a middle life crisis, pitch a fit or whatever, then listen to your parents voice, get over yourself, tell the negative inner voice to fuck off. Find what will make you content for the rest of your life or some sort of middle ground.