Thank you. I would love to hear Jeff's rant sometime--he is very funny, and I could really use some pure, genuine laughter.
I'm definitely not the same person that I was then. To some extent, I am mourning that, because some of the biggest things that have changed since then are the result of deeply painful and alienating experiences. Part of what's going on with me is that I have become extremely wary, afraid to fully engage with the world. My guard is up, irrationally high, and I don't like it.
The metaphor of the car crash, and leaving the road, etc. was an obscure reference to my divorce--leaving the well-traveled road, the accepted and acceptable narrative, and striking out in a new direction, one less charted. I didn't specify in my post because it could really be anything; I think many people suddenly find themselves going off in a direction that they never expected, or even imagined, for themselves, and it can be both scary and exhilarating because you have no idea what to expect around the next corner.
Thanks for the advice. I appreciate it--and really needed to hear that it's normal and OK, most of all. And to cut myself some slack. It's just a difficult thing to do, sometimes.
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I'm definitely not the same person that I was then. To some extent, I am mourning that, because some of the biggest things that have changed since then are the result of deeply painful and alienating experiences. Part of what's going on with me is that I have become extremely wary, afraid to fully engage with the world. My guard is up, irrationally high, and I don't like it.
The metaphor of the car crash, and leaving the road, etc. was an obscure reference to my divorce--leaving the well-traveled road, the accepted and acceptable narrative, and striking out in a new direction, one less charted. I didn't specify in my post because it could really be anything; I think many people suddenly find themselves going off in a direction that they never expected, or even imagined, for themselves, and it can be both scary and exhilarating because you have no idea what to expect around the next corner.
Thanks for the advice. I appreciate it--and really needed to hear that it's normal and OK, most of all. And to cut myself some slack. It's just a difficult thing to do, sometimes.