Well you know my journal -- so I don't really censor myself per se... at least not a lot. I censor myself in the fact that I'm selective about giving details that no one would understand. Most people who read my LJ, as far as I know, know the minimum about me to understand some details (Rachel, CWU, etc).
I like having all of this out in the open as a venue for people to get to know more about what I'm doing and how I'm doing. Whenever I spend time in someone's presence who I haven't seen in awhile, I ask questions and they don't. Most people ask a minimum of questions and if I don't choose to volunteer my life in a hardbound book, they don't get to know anything and I don't get to say anything. So this is my protest to people not asking me about how I'm doing. Plus its convenient when family reads it so I don't have to say, "Yeah, doing good" or "School is getting me down" or "My girlfriend cheated on me" since they already know.
I have no problem with sharing my thoughts because I do most of my contemplation while in the midst of conversation. So this is just...a worldwide conversation, right? I enjoy asking questions and getting feedback, I love it when someone shares a tidbit about their life because they could relate to my thought patterns or history. I get a kick out of that.
Why have an LJ instead of a private journal? I do it because I'm a social creature and I can't have an active social life all the time that visits every circle that I'm involved with -- I'd be broke and tired. So I make up for that with this LJ. I can be serious, I can be goofy, I can be academic, I can be political and there will always be someone who will say something to me, online or off, because of it.
Of course it's narcissitic. Anytime you expose yourself to public examination, you're doing it because you're confident that a particular aspect of yourself will hold up to scrutiny -- its easier to take someone else's words as well... since we are our own worst critic, why not take a less harsh taskmaster like the public?
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Date: 2005-09-29 05:14 pm (UTC)Well you know my journal -- so I don't really censor myself per se... at least not a lot. I censor myself in the fact that I'm selective about giving details that no one would understand. Most people who read my LJ, as far as I know, know the minimum about me to understand some details (Rachel, CWU, etc).
I like having all of this out in the open as a venue for people to get to know more about what I'm doing and how I'm doing. Whenever I spend time in someone's presence who I haven't seen in awhile, I ask questions and they don't. Most people ask a minimum of questions and if I don't choose to volunteer my life in a hardbound book, they don't get to know anything and I don't get to say anything. So this is my protest to people not asking me about how I'm doing. Plus its convenient when family reads it so I don't have to say, "Yeah, doing good" or "School is getting me down" or "My girlfriend cheated on me" since they already know.
I have no problem with sharing my thoughts because I do most of my contemplation while in the midst of conversation. So this is just...a worldwide conversation, right? I enjoy asking questions and getting feedback, I love it when someone shares a tidbit about their life because they could relate to my thought patterns or history. I get a kick out of that.
Why have an LJ instead of a private journal? I do it because I'm a social creature and I can't have an active social life all the time that visits every circle that I'm involved with -- I'd be broke and tired. So I make up for that with this LJ. I can be serious, I can be goofy, I can be academic, I can be political and there will always be someone who will say something to me, online or off, because of it.
Of course it's narcissitic. Anytime you expose yourself to public examination, you're doing it because you're confident that a particular aspect of yourself will hold up to scrutiny -- its easier to take someone else's words as well... since we are our own worst critic, why not take a less harsh taskmaster like the public?