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glaucon, actually) and observed that i haven't posted in awhile. sure enough, i haven't posted in almost a week. there's no real reason for that, except that i have been extremely busy this week. i had a pile of grading to get off my back, plus other end-of-quarter stuff to take care of. in addition, i have been extremely stressed about not having funding for next quarter. here are the respective outcomes of those stressors:
1. finished the grading. now i have a blissfully open weekend, with nothing to work on except my own academic work. very, very nice.
2. on wednesday--yes, that's 12/7, less than a month before winter quarter starts--my department offered me a teaching assignment for next quarter. i had already pretty much decided to apply for a completely different part-time job, so i was startled and not completely thrilled to get the teaching appointment. i decided to accept it, though, and *also* to apply for the other part-time job. if i get offered that job, i will accept it. that means i might end up working 2 jobs next quarter. stress stress stress!!! or maybe not. together, they amount to a full-time job, and both are on or near campus, so there's not some crazy commute involved. i will simply plan *not* to accomplish much (or anything) on my dissertation next quarter. but working 2 jobs will enable me to build some savings, maybe even enough to fund that trip overseas i'd like to take next summer. that is a goal worth working my ass off for. also, i've been thinking about this a lot, and i might end up surprising myself by how much work i'm able to get done on my dissertation while working two jobs. sometimes having too much work to do *energizes* me and enables me to be more efficient and therefore more productive. so i might end up getting more, better work done next quarter, working 2 jobs, than i did last summer when i was working zero jobs and living on loans. (i KNOW i don't want to do that again! it was a waste!)
the upshot of all this is that my self-confidence seems to be on the mend, and i'm a lot more focused on what i *can* do, rather than feeling like there's too much that i *can't* do. this is a Very Good Thing (VGT)! funny, to understand how critical this is to running one's life, but to have such a hard time getting over to that side of the line (the "can" vs. the "can't" side of the line, i mean). hard to express this. i hope y'all know what the hell i mean. :-P
ok, that's all i've got for now. hope everyone is doing well. my holiday break is almost upon me. the only task i have left before it officially begins is grading final portfolios, which i'll be collecting from my students on tuesday. yee-ha!!
glaucon, actually) and observed that i haven't posted in awhile. sure enough, i haven't posted in almost a week. there's no real reason for that, except that i have been extremely busy this week. i had a pile of grading to get off my back, plus other end-of-quarter stuff to take care of. in addition, i have been extremely stressed about not having funding for next quarter. here are the respective outcomes of those stressors:1. finished the grading. now i have a blissfully open weekend, with nothing to work on except my own academic work. very, very nice.
2. on wednesday--yes, that's 12/7, less than a month before winter quarter starts--my department offered me a teaching assignment for next quarter. i had already pretty much decided to apply for a completely different part-time job, so i was startled and not completely thrilled to get the teaching appointment. i decided to accept it, though, and *also* to apply for the other part-time job. if i get offered that job, i will accept it. that means i might end up working 2 jobs next quarter. stress stress stress!!! or maybe not. together, they amount to a full-time job, and both are on or near campus, so there's not some crazy commute involved. i will simply plan *not* to accomplish much (or anything) on my dissertation next quarter. but working 2 jobs will enable me to build some savings, maybe even enough to fund that trip overseas i'd like to take next summer. that is a goal worth working my ass off for. also, i've been thinking about this a lot, and i might end up surprising myself by how much work i'm able to get done on my dissertation while working two jobs. sometimes having too much work to do *energizes* me and enables me to be more efficient and therefore more productive. so i might end up getting more, better work done next quarter, working 2 jobs, than i did last summer when i was working zero jobs and living on loans. (i KNOW i don't want to do that again! it was a waste!)
the upshot of all this is that my self-confidence seems to be on the mend, and i'm a lot more focused on what i *can* do, rather than feeling like there's too much that i *can't* do. this is a Very Good Thing (VGT)! funny, to understand how critical this is to running one's life, but to have such a hard time getting over to that side of the line (the "can" vs. the "can't" side of the line, i mean). hard to express this. i hope y'all know what the hell i mean. :-P
ok, that's all i've got for now. hope everyone is doing well. my holiday break is almost upon me. the only task i have left before it officially begins is grading final portfolios, which i'll be collecting from my students on tuesday. yee-ha!!
