arguchik | (no subject)

WTF??? i cannot sleep! i have been awake all night, tossing and turning. i have literally not slept a wink. tried reading--even the most boring shit didn't do the trick. tried breathing slowly, simply lying here with my eyes closed, trying to empty my mind--nothing.

i'm just restless, too much on my mind, i guess. pre-quarter jitters. i wonder if i should run in the morning like i'd planned. that'll probably help me sleep monday night...but it might make me sleep all afternoon instead. that would be bad.

i feel like a fucking volcano lately. sometimes in a good way--the writer's block and academic malaise i wrote about a couple of entries ago has receded somewhat, and my prospectus is starting to take on more of a coherent shape. sometimes in a weird way--like i want to scream or shave my head or start wearing only green or quit school and join a zen monastery or write a novel instead of my dissertation or pull a forrest gump and just run without stopping for months and months. sometimes in a bad way--like i just want to curl up and cry for a few days. i'll bet that would help me sleep.

wait, what day is it? oh, right...i'm pms-ing.