eat light:

my paternal grandfather was an alcoholic. he died of late-onset diabetes, which is generally the result of lifestyle choices. he didn't take care of himself. my father is doing the same thing, but to make matters worse (and more sad) is that, unlike my grandfather, my dad knows what's up (i.e. he knows that if he continues making poor lifestyle choices, like getting wasted to the point of slurred speech and black-outs -at age 63!- he will die). it's become so awful that i actually avoid calling him. talking to him makes me incredibly sad and i can't really think about anything else for hours without great sadness. having aidan makes it all the more troubling: he's not likely to get to know my father, his grandfather. anyway, this was supposed to be about your father, not mine: i'm sorry you are going through this. and i love your optimism!