I've said this kind of thing before, but it's relevant here so I'll say it again. the way I see it, you have two good courses of action open to you:
1. give yourself a clean slate/free pass on everything thus far, modify your work methods, change a few other lifestyle aspects, and pretend you just started writing your thesis today.
2. burn it all and do something new. something involving the life sciences (botany perhaps, but others maybe also) might be one good choice - you seem to have a great energy and enthusiasm whenever you talk about things of that sort. something craft oriented - maybe not getting paid for knitting, but perhaps making dough for something knitting related. or like you said, something tolerable but not very exciting that pays the bills.
either one though starts with letting go of guilt and anxiety and just giving yourself a pass to be what you are now rather than what you thought you should be by now.
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Date: 2009-11-19 11:22 pm (UTC)1. give yourself a clean slate/free pass on everything thus far, modify your work methods, change a few other lifestyle aspects, and pretend you just started writing your thesis today.
2. burn it all and do something new. something involving the life sciences (botany perhaps, but others maybe also) might be one good choice - you seem to have a great energy and enthusiasm whenever you talk about things of that sort. something craft oriented - maybe not getting paid for knitting, but perhaps making dough for something knitting related. or like you said, something tolerable but not very exciting that pays the bills.
either one though starts with letting go of guilt and anxiety and just giving yourself a pass to be what you are now rather than what you thought you should be by now.