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wow. i really like the be good tanyas' rendition of "house of the rising sun." they also do a nice cover of led zeppelin's "in my time of dying." (both on chinatown) and on their first album (blue horse)...ah, sweet "oh! susannah" and "the lakes of ponchartrain."

went from the pixies to this.

i think i am meant to be a single woman. why do i go so quickly from enjoying myself, enjoying another person, to feeling smothered? why is it that i sooo dislike being overly "catered" to? it's weird. i would call it "chivalrous" behavior, but it's not specific actions (like opening doors for me, letting me go up or down stairs first, etc.), it's the spirit behind them, the attitude. and how the hell am i picking up on that? it probably has more to do with how i'm feeling about the person, anyway, but that's what i'm trying to figure out...what makes it change so quickly and inexplicably? i don't know. sometimes i'm fine with chivalrous behavior, and sometimes it chafes, makes my fur stand up and my claws come out. just like sometimes affection tips over into possessiveness, even though the specific action or touch is indistinguishable from one person or situation to the next. the hand on the small of my back...sometimes it's intimate and comfortable, sometimes it's condescending and possessive, and sometimes it's just overly deferential. sometimes it feels nice, and sometimes warning lights go off, and that shift sometimes happens in the space of an hour.

bleah. maybe i'm just a difficult, weird girl who doesn't know what the hell she wants.

note the new userpic! deptford pink, dianthus armeria. shocking pink flowers, yet small as my thumbnail, set on long skinny green stems, easy to miss. alien species, invasive weed, yet...its favorite places to grow are along roads and train tracks, in vacant lots and other "waste" spaces. so can we hold its alienness and invasiveness against it? (would i ask the same question of kudzu? environmental ethics and aesthetics...topic for another hour. i just don't want anyone to tell me i shouldn't like it--lol.)


p.s. hey kelli--if you're reading this, set up an LJ account so you'll know when i reply to your comments!

pack of angry what? bites to his...what?

ok now i've seen everything. from the p-i. i'm cutting and pasting the full text, along with attribution to the associated press (my late sister's employer, interestingly), so hopefully i won't get in trouble. i cannot stop laughing. the image...the image...somebody, somewhere (coen bros? farrelly bros?) simply *must* put this in a movie. (actually, it reminds me of the dog stampede from "raising arizona," speaking of the coen bros.) shit, i have tears streaming down my face... i just love small things, don't you? their ferocity. rawwwrrr.

Friday, December 30, 2005 · Last updated 9:32 a.m. PT
Pack of angry Chihuahuas attacks officer

THE ASSOCIATED PRESS

FREMONT, Calif. -- A pack of angry Chihuahuas attacked a police officer who was escorting a teenager home after a traffic stop, authorities said.

The officer suffered minor injuries, including bites to his ankle, Detective Bill Veteran said.

The five Chihuahuas escaped the 17-year-old boy's home and rushed the officer in the doorway Thursday, authorities said. The teenager had been detained after the traffic incident.

The officer was treated at a hospital and returned to work less than two hours later.