(sigh)

[arguchik]

today my work is making me feel nauseous. or nauseated (per glaucon). whatever. it makes me want to puke.

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[superannuated1l.livejournal.com]

I, too, spent all day yesterday gripped by a fear of work. I tried to cook things, but they all turned out badly. Then I spent many hours reading the internet and becoming increasingly bored and anxious. Finally, I realized that the only thing that makes the fear of work better is to work. So I logged onto Westlaw and started distractedly researching the doctrine of part performance. Then I went to bed, got up at 3:00, and wrote this damn motion for summary judgment. In the very early morning I'm numb to the fear of work. I've started looking forward to getting up at 3:00 or 4:00 to write, because I know at least I won't have that sick feeling in my stomach. I don't know why that is.

[arguchik.livejournal.com]

i think you've hit on something, actually. lately my circadian rhythms have shifted to the late side--i.e. i stay up late and get up late, so that by the time i'm out of bed i already feel like i've lost the day. it's annoying. sleeping while it's light out (which happens when i get up late) also leaves me feeling sluggish and grumpy all day--so i start out with the sick feeling in my stomach, and it never goes away. for me, i think that the sick feeling is related to the worry that i am running out of time, living on borrowed time, or however you want to put it.

clearly, i need to take steps to shift my day back to an early-bird schedule.

[superannuated1l.livejournal.com]

Getting things done and not getting into the guilt spiral is definitely part of it, but the "no angst in the morning" thing also feels kind of physiological to me. Like my brain's so stunned to even be up at 4:00 that it can't muster a freakout.