running and writing log

[arguchik]

ran 3 today. i took an extra couple of days off for the menstruation break, and my body is happy i did. today's run felt fantastic.

the new shoes continue to thrill me. they have silver and blue stripes, and they're sproingy.

i'm sproingy too. i feel light, strong, and happy. hard in love. intellectually energized, ready to do some final honing of my dissertation project so i can finally send a prospectus draft to my advisor. i can't believe it's been 2 years since i passed my exams. what fucking rabbit hole did i fall into? the real question is whether or not i've dragged myself out of it in time to still be viable on the academic job market. i have much professional catching up to do! a friend of mine once said, about union organizing, "you have to meet people where they are." i think the same is true with oneself and one's work. back when i was an undergrad, my karate instructor had this motto tacked to a bulletin board in our dojang: "if you worry about what might be, and wonder about what might have been, you will miss what is." it's a little cheesy, but i still repeat it to myself whenever i get bogged down with worry about lost time, lost opportunities, etc.

hmm. i think i need some new user icons.

Comments

[wondrousbeauty.livejournal.com]

That motto might be cheesy but I really needed to read it! Applying for fellowships, sending out abstracts and proposals for conferences and publications, trying to meet writing goals for one's dissertation, etc. has a way of making a person feel really inadequate (especially with a nothing spectacular CV like mine). But it's true--we are where we are, and that's where we have to come from. It's soothing when you think of it like that.