arguchik | heart

in other news, my heartbeat has taken a major, noticable turn for the better over the last 5 or 6 days. today i've only had one pretty brief period of arhythmia, while i was on the bus this morning. it lasted for 7 or 8 minutes. it's really remarkable. my chest just feels easier, looser. there's no tightness.

(this is without alprazolam. i ran out of that a couple of days ago. for the last 2-3 weeks i've only been taking it at night because it helped me to sleep, and it felt like that was the thing i most needed help with. happily, i don't feel like i need it anymore.)

it just feels so good to be doing the work that i love again--all of it, teaching, research, writing, even grading. i have a great group of students this quarter, and i'm especially happy that they seem to have cohered nicely as a group. cross your fingers for me--i'm looking for teaching work for next year, to sustain me during the real writing process that is yet to come. i know i shouldn't count on getting anything from my department next year, though i'm hoping for a 1-quarter fellowship.

yeah, so i'm taking it easy tonight. i'm going to curl up with a novel for a bit, casually grade a few papers, and at some point i will eat ice cream!