in brief

[arguchik]

it has been 2 weeks since i've posted here. i haven't been keeping up with friends' journals very regularly, either. partly this is because i've been busy preparing for and making my way through the first week of the quarter. it's also because the things i've been thinking and worrying about are somewhat private. i'm not sure i want to write about it in this forum (also not sure anyone who reads my journal would want to read about it), and i haven't had the mental energy to write about anything else.

i think i'm at something of an impasse WRT blogging, bumping up against its limitations whereas before i was more impressed by what it offers. perhaps i'm also bumping up against my own expectations for the medium, and trying to figure out whether/how to revise those expectations along with my relationship to the medium, how i use it, etc.

i've been doing a lot of this same kind of questioning in other areas of my life, too. taking stock, i guess you could say. coming to terms. assessing trajectories, plans, and ideas. accepting where i am and what has led me here even as i feel out the contours of here and now.

heady stuff. hard work.

Comments

[arguchik.livejournal.com]

thank you--i really like reading your blog, too. you have an interesting take on the world, and i get a kick out of your boy stories. i agree with you about what writing can do. as i said to malafrena, below, i think my main problem with the public-ness of the forum is that it inhibits me from fully expressing myself, and at the same time it has replaced my analog journal. i just need to get that notebook back out again and use it.

[alice-at-night.livejournal.com]

you know, it is possible to mark LJ entries as PRIVATE. I use that occasionally when I need to write, but I'd find it too searing for any of my friends to know about it. Keeps my journaling in one place.

I sometimes wonder why LJ doesn't have a NOT FRIENDS filter. For things I'm not sure I want my friends to know about..